My forthcoming book has become the focus of my life. New energy swirls around me as I have conversations with booksellers, web site designers, social media consultants, public relations specialists. There is no end to what could be done. I’m thrilled. Delighted with possibility. And slightly overwhelmed.
Who to choose to work with?
What to do and not do?
How much is enough?’
My forever personal consultant and sister gently reminds me, when I speak with her on the phone, to step back and trust the feeling that arises in my body. She’s right. I find my body wisdom much more reliable than my head wisdom. I’m liable to get excited about almost everything I encounter. And from the place of heady possibility, I don't know how to decide. I'm constantly afraid of making the wrong decision.
So today – to remember to take what our Zen ancestor Dogen called ‘the backward step.’ To step back from the momentum of the forward leaning excitement and worry. To notice my fleshy life of THIS moment even as I dream into some bright and wonderful future.
Feet on the ground.
Breath in the belly.
Trusting the subtle sense
still quietly arising
amid the hubbub.
It's much easier to think "in the moment" than sometimes do it.
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